Awesomeness Personified !!

Its been a long time....a long long time...since i felt this peaceful...this happy. Today I made the one person who matters most in the world to me Happy....My beloved Granny. Today is a special occasion...Buddha Pournami. My granny was born on this special day.  We have the moon all gorgeous and shining with all intensity. I sit peacefully on the terrace. So peacefully...that nothing could faintly disturb or intrigue me right now. I cannot but appreciate the beauty of life in this serene setting with my favorite composition by Marcelo Zavros playing in the background. Soulful Music + Light Breeze nuzzling your hair gently+Happiness = Awesomeness Personified :). We had a big birthday bash for Granny Dear. Surprised her with the cake, some special gifts and all the flowers. Oh My God...she was so happy. That Makes me Even more happy. I wish you live for a hundred more years granmom. Your the best friend I could ever ask for. I Love You Eternally. Its so ironic that in busy days such as these, with all the technology and social networking, I must say I've seen many people ignore their grandparents especially. Now that flares up anger within me. I cannot understand why the hell people cannot take time to spend a little with their grandparents. I mean they are the only link with history that we have. My own granny is the last person in her family line who is still alive. Touch wood. I love to listen to all the stories that she has got to say. How they lived during the British Times. The second World War. Her parents.Her Childhood. How Happy they were without technology and T.V's n Computers n wat not shit that takes our time away today. I cannot but go back in time along with her, trying to understand how life was back then. Wow....we may see the future, we may hope for the future....but the fact stands that we may never re-build the past. We may take time out for friends, party in pubs, drink till u can't make sense of the world, smoke till u fill your lungs with shit....but do take time out to put the smile on these priceless treasure's that are Grandparents. I miss you Grandpa and Pednanna. We missed you guys today..Wherever you are I hope You both are happily Playing Chess and Looking down Upon Us . :) 

Adios!!

Gearing up for the fight !!

A few lines that have got me up and roaring after the fiasco of the past few weeks...Oh yes I can motivate myself well enough and don't need anyone to do that for me....aaaannnnddd the Bull Charges Ahead with renewed determination :D

“If you want a thing bad enough to go out and fight for it, 

to work day and night for it,

to give up your time, your peace and your sleep for it…

if all that you dream and scheme is about it,

and life seems useless and worthless without it…

if you gladly sweat for it and fret for it and plan for it

and lose all your terror of the opposition for it…

if you simply go after that thing you want

with all of your capacity, strength and sagacity,

faith, hope and confidence and stern pertinacity…

if neither cold, poverty, famine, nor gout,

sickness nor pain, of body and brain,

can keep you away from the thing that you want…

if dogged and grim you beseech and beset it,

with the help of God, you will get it!”

--Les Brown

What Goes Around...Comes Back Around

Life has come a full circle. It has taken two years to know this and experience it but then yes What Goes Around always always comes back around. I am back to square one, with things as incomplete as ever.  Today a weird thought has struck me : Almost as powerfully as a bolt of lightning. In vain have I wasted the past few years. Behind things that are impossible. Behind People that are impossible to comprehend and understand. When people told me that something or someone was not worth it, I still gave it a shot. Here I am now left with a sackful of experiences and memories, all of which have taught me valuable lessons. Taking stock of the situation it's pretty clear what I should be doing. Here I am starting a new mission, hoping to find the lost passion I had for life and for those few people who care for me and who I care for Immensely. Standing beside me are the people who have always been with me, all the time. My family - My greatest strength always. My best friend : Probably the only one I am lucky to have. One long distance phone call all the way from one continent to another has brought me back to the right frame of mind. Thank You Sam....you are the best. I believe in the power of operating alone. Always Alone. I'll stand by that. I thought I was strong and composed, but one incident has got all my weakness exposed.To get my mind and body back to the right frame will be a tough task. But here I am fighting hard not to sink into the black hole of ill-health. I've hit the gym and I am surprised to discover the hidden strength within me. Initially it was tough. The gym is a place where people are so conscious of their identities. The thin gal that I am I did attract hostile stares almost seeming to say : You are thin, what the hell you doing here. Stopped gym after 3 straight days of the same stares. But now I am back! After two great workouts I know I will be making the gym a part of my life. Thanks Sam Again. Blogging after a long time feels good as so does exercise. I've got back to avid reading as well. Recently read about this true life love story and was stunned by it. Never thought a Man could love one woman so dedicatedly in so many ways. I've always thought that marriage was testimony to love but this story proved that loving someone so much without marrying is also possible. I've also read this wonderful book "Thank You for the Memories" by Cecelia Ahern. Man she's one hell of a writer and my next favorite after  Madam Rowling. So here I am after experimenting with life, ready to take back everything that is rightfully mine :). Life is so good when there is Music in It. Oh Yes! After a long hiatus I am back to experimenting with Music.Here's the link to Linkin Park's new song : One hell of a song and absolutely great for a Work Out. LP always rocks. Wonder what Life would be without LP and Coldplay. Happy Weekend Everyone :) :)

Punched in the Gut...

You know how people usually keep saying how they feel when some one breaks their heart.... that surreal feeling of tightly clenched muscles, the breathlessness as if you've been punched in your face....that dreading sick feeling of a sinking heart.....well i always assumed that was all literature talk.. at least until today!! I feel empty. The one person for whom I've devoted my past two years of time, patience-I never knew I possessed, trying to make sure that the person experiences happiness all the time....All gone in a puff of wind. Trust is indeed too big a word.... I've kicked it from my dictionary today. Its so very weird how artificial people can be. The past few months I've felt pretty good about myself. Though its an empty and lonely life that I am living, I found happiness.... but now all the efforts I had put in now seem funnily insane and not even worth that person's life. I give up finally....I gave it an year and a half....felt all the happiness and unhappiness i could bear...but i guess ENOUGH is ENOUGH! Life without Attachments seems like a brilliant idea...time to put it into practice  I've never felt more comfortable with myself ever....its a solitary journey from now.Its never easy to recover when some one close to you kicks you in the gut (literally) and breaks your heart completely! Wonder how long recovery will last now! 

Adios!

Of Strings and Rainbows

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand its another perfect day with yet again perfect weather.....a beautiful rainbow was duly and obviously spotted after the city experienced its First monsoon showers......'ear 'ear its the blessed rains finally making an appearance :) and so I am happy !!

I was feeling elated all day coz basically m back to playing my guitar. Its a real tragedy i've ignored the guitar for the most part of the summer. Slash (Guitar Guy) sure did convince me it's time to discover the pure happiness u get when u play music!! I am duly horrified to discover I've lost my touch. So its back to the basics for now !

Oh by the way I am a graduate now (nothing spectacular.. jus' making a casual note) and I've cherished that by watching the Movie The Graduate :P 

Also I've made a trip 'cross town to get everyone together to celebrate My Special Uncle's 42nd Birthday. Time to give back everything to the man who made our childhood memorable and gave us cousins a lot to cheer about. Happy Birthday Mani Mama :)

To add spice to my life I've embarked on a little quest. I am hoping it will see success unlike the many other quest's of mine which haven't!

Have a Happy Weekend !!

P.S Roxette-It must have been love......guess it the best ballad ever made!!

Mind Over Matter

Today's been just perfect. A perfect day. The city n its weather for once has been awesome. Those puffy pearly white clouds punctuating the touch me not blue sky was a sight for sore eyes. A constant smile was playing across my face the whole day...well without any reason. We've had a terrible summer in the city so far. So harsh enough for me to consider running away to someplace cool. For an instant I imagined myself as Tom Hanks in Castaway.....:P. lol that island of his is sooooooo perfect....if you are living only for a day or two max.The breeze was so cool n refreshing that...well I got to thinking about a lot of things. Happiness- Should there be a reason to be happy or smile? I guess after today my answer would be No. I've never been this comfortable with myself. It makes sense now when Samantha says I Love Me More. It's very important that you be comfortable with the you that you love. I've bid adieu to confusion and well I can see a new beginning right up my sleeve. In fact last week was just too perfect as well. I've never enjoyed the company of kids anymore than now. There was a time when i swore to practically everyone who heard that I wouldn't have kids if i ever got married. Now I feel foolish n sheepish to have ever thought that. Kids teach you patience, innocence and most importantly they bring out the child in you. Hanging around with my kiddo cousins was a learning experience. The love that they shower you with is the purest form of feeling. Lazing around in the sand, teaching the kids basic soccer, learning about the old times from gran-mom whoa I've never been more content. No, I haven't achieved great heights, I haven't created anything special, I am not making money but yet that satisfaction has been endearing. It's weird sometimes how people measure their lives by the money they earn. Yes, money is the most basic necessity we humans need to survive in a world were people live,marry,kill and do a list of crazy endless stuff for the minted notes. But it seems we ourselves are responsible for bringing about this situation. I continue steadfastly in maintaining a stand that at the end of the day "The world does not run on money". We are talking about saturation. A stage where desires are endless and well u can't match money wid desires. That is a perfect recipe for disaster. The human mind is a complex entity. Learning to train it early can do wonders. I would take the liberty of saying control the mind, but well no one can control the human mind.  At least not always. I am amazed at the power we have within ourselves to convince our minds.Its a little easier to control the heart when you've already made peace with your mind. My experiences in the past few weeks totally reckon with the above. Well I can see the winds of life changing directions and I hope for once they blow me over with fresh thoughts about what I can do in this wonderful journey called Life. The formal education is done and the real one begins now.Things that I had considered well impossible to imagine are laughable matters now. I've been living a very misleading life, somehow it wasn't the me I knew. Well m getting back to the old me now and I realize change is imminent. With people, cities, cultures, countries change is what makes things new and maybe not always better but, what's life if you won't budge a little here and there and adjust? Yeah I've made heck a lotta mistakes all along the path. But, weirdly enough I am very happy I made those mistakes. For in the words of Carrie Bradshaw "Maybe the mistakes we make shape our fate n destiny. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. Coz after all seasons change,so do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's very comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart and if you are very lucky, a plane ride away." 
I rest In Peace :)

P.S. Well since we are talking about new beginnings might as well lend a ear to the magic of Celine Dion. Her voice in this song has well neva been more better. I've moved on to many other genres and artists but this song keeps... well everything alive :) That's the magic of music they say :) 

Good Tidings!!

Well they say time just flies by when life gets interesting.....I dunno about the interesting part but yeah time is indeed racing past. It's April already...and I can't seem to remember how exactly I've lived through Feb n March. Last week was pretty interesting though....Got through a lot of pending work and so the weight's off my shoulder for probably another month. Life seems to be a collection of small events as of now, and i seem to be rushing from one to another. The week started of well with a early morning message from Mr.Cool. Yo, M very happy for him...he's about to start a new phase of life...which is quite crucial for him. I did get to finally do some photography of my own......some snaps with basic editing....nothing too complex to start with. I've really started to like my new hobby, its a real pleasure learning something on your own. An acquaintance I acquired in Facebook, is the sole inspiration behind my idea of taking up photography. That guy is a real talent. Well he's a civil engineer so I think its pretty obvious that he's got an eye for photography. I've included a snap i'd shot of my favorite blue-bird. Chirpy little thing!!! I practically spent my lifetime waiting for it to appear by my balcony...and when it finally did....I snapped it in a jiffy!

Later during the week, I met this really interesting guy....he's supposed to be a distant cousin of mine and has traveled half way across the world. Though he'd achieved a lot, at a very young age, I couldn't detect a sense of pride in him. A simple guy...they are rare to find. He got all of us in splits of laughter, with his story of a gay who'd fallen in love with him, and whom he couldn't seem to get rid off. It was a terrific way to spend the weekend, discussing myriad topics with him. Whoa....he's got a pretty good view of the world. I'd always been in two minds regarding my career, and this guy just solved my problem. Oh and I've failed miserably yet again in trying to be punctual. Miss Sweet Smile has decided to buy be an alarm clock which can wake me up, and save her precious time trying to wake me up. What she doesn't know is that the clock will be defunct the very next day with me hammering it dead!! I really can't seem to be punctual....or maybe I'm not really trying. Lol...I can't decide which is worst! I wound up the week by going secret shopping and splurging my hard earned money on a brand new pair of jeans...The more the merrier!! What was disastrous however was that I spent ages in the trial room trying on size 28.....after an hour and 8 jeans later, I was forced to conclude that Its time for size 30.Indeed I'm Growing up....which is pretty normal for a 21 year old!!! Sigh!! Also I think I am in love with a young Leonardo Di Caprio in Catch Me If U Can!!! An Awesome flick that I'd finally got to see recently. Going by the predictions of the weather man...it does look like the harsh summer is here to stay, I really can't seem to get anything done during the day. Guess I'd better turn Nocturnal......coz the sun is definitely not lettin' up!!! Time to Sign off for now

Adios!!

P.S  The IPL Season 5 has got off to a start.....it's a real pleasure watching batsmen club the hapless bowlers for huge sixes. Excitement and Entertainment Unlimited and fingers crossed for the Deccan Chargers!!!