Another year has almost come to an end. As I reflect and filter through the past, regret fills me profoundly.....There have been many things that haven't simply gone the way they should have....but that is what I think...God has seen to it that they end differently. Many people have always complained to me that they simply didn't have the power to control many things in their life. I vehemently argue that one's life is always in one's control. You have the power to make and break decisions. My argument that a person can control everything in his/her life except maybe death....stands defeated today. I had the power to change the outcome of many things that happened this year. Yet i just didn't.I couldn't. So how can we explain this? Should I blame it on God or Destiny? I always thought that both GOD and DESTINY were figments of imagination of the human mind. ARE THEY??? Or is there some simple answer to this riddle. I am no where near to figuring this out. M stuck and so desperately. Right now all m surrounded by is frayed relationships and bad memories. They say time heals everything. But how long will it take. I don't think some wounds ever HEAL....no i don't think so. Maybe they are left to serve a grim remainder of mistakes committed in the past. They never seem to fade in my life at least. I can only say this honestly I never meant to hurt the people who claim that i hurt them. Never ever did i think that all such shit would happen this year. It's been a hell of a bad year for me....and i can't make head or tail of the mess m stuck up in. I am sure many people would be always hoping that they get one chance to set right the mistakes of the past. How many get that chance??? One thing that strikes me odd is that if at all there was a GOD in this world...why isn't the world a much happier place to live today for millions on the street? Those who are rich are never happy or contended. Poverty and homelessness continues to be a raging topic cutting across continents. The middle-east is torn apart by War....where is GOD in all of this? What if man created the concept of GOD to atone for his mistakes? Jesus surely produced more bread from a single loaf. Lord Krishna could make rice appear out of thin air. Then y the hell are people starving on the roads today? I wonder how many could give a sane and rational answer to this. When i posed this question to my dear mother i got a whacking reply: Science can never answer the concept of GOD. Oh yes...here we are again revisiting the most profound and hard fought battles of SCIENCE Vs RELIGION. Reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown gave me more knowledge than anyone could. Scientists are fighting hard to try to unravel the secrets of how the universe began. 2012 will surely unravel the mystery of Higg's Boson. I have full confidence in SCIENCE. Maybe it can explain the concept of GOD. Meanwhile the City is gearing up for New Year 2012. I wonder what is so new in the year? People booze,smoke and drive more rashly heralding the new year. As far as I am concerned everyday is a New Year, if you see it that way. I am very happy about the campaign launched against Drunk Driving in the city....oh yes i do not care whether the pubs and restaurants are registering a drop in sale of liquor, coz many others will go home warm and safe with this new initiative in place. As I admire another beautiful sunset, m left with more baffling questions than my mind can actually handle. Well I am off to pay a visit to dear Jesus in the Church......and maybe get to soak in the Xmas spirit there. Merry Christmas to Everybody!! Take Care and God Bless!
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