Infoscion...:)

Today is the day m never gonna forget for a long time to come......never has a day been more tiring, nerve-racking and exciting as today.....I did get placed in INFOSYS....:D...Woot Woot!!!

My day started off at 5:15 am....i had to go 160 km from my place for the placement session of INFOSYS. After the usual morning work...i dressed carefully in an attire i was not quite comfy with...Salwar Kammez..:P.After a bumpy, dusty and hilarious bus ride we reached Indur Institute of Science and Technology,Siddipet, Medak District at 9:25 pm. Registration was done....and after an enlightening PPT by some hotshot INFY guy....we finally went through the written exam....was quite easy one part and challenging the other part....hmm so could i be selected???? i was left pondering that until 2.50 pm...was tensed....yet when the results were announced i was there......:D....

1183 ppl appeared for the exam....only 102 crossed the first hurdle....me included..not a big deal some might say.....hell of i deal i say..:)

I was taken across for my HR interview. I messed up a previous interview...so there was reason for me to be tensed....Yet i pulled myself together...and confidently strode in.

HR was a very nice man...North Indian...he put me at ease...tested my confidence and communication abilities....put me under pressure....and finally again at ease...:) It was a good one....but yet again i was tensed....Interview was done at 4:00pm and after a nervous and heart stopping 2hrs 40 mins...results were announced and i was IN...:) The tension in room 305 was palpable....enormous.Those 2 hrs 40 min taught me a lot....about patience, about belief and self confidence...not to forget faith in GOD... It might not me a big thing for many out there.....but for me it was everything....I was in a college were placements were not guaranteed....I had to earn it on my own...and i did just that by travelling 320 kms up and down....and if there was one person who supported me through all this...it was my MOTHER....I love you mom...and this is for you...and only you..:)...i am no one without you. When the INFY guy announced the results and ended his short speech with See you at Mysore....a collective whoop and cheering went on in the Room...hugs were bestowed and hands shaken...Congrats was the most used word for the moment...:) After another scary cab ride i entered home at 9:25 pm....famished (Coz i ate just once in the entire day) and tired(didnt get mre than 2 hrs sleep) but the smile my mumma gave me was worth a million bucks....yeah i made her happy....:) and therein lies my happiness. Calls and msgs followed mostly from relatives....dear aunts and my darling granny and of course a few close friends....:) Nevertheless it was a job well done...:) m going to go and sleep for 24hrs straight....lol....my day has ended on the best possible note....a happy and elated call from Shamu...:) And yet again i had discovered another bitter truth.....People around you are not always happy if something good happens to u for a change!!!....yew i say!!!

yup..m headed for my pilow and comforter...good night....I have a long struggle ahead.....And thank you dear Grandpa....i know you will always look upon  me grandpa...yes you are there always for me...I Miss You so much....and last but not the least....GOD.....I believe in you...I am a believer today!!!

Old is Gold...

I was just listening to the song Linger by The Cranberries....and the comments on YouTube all were inclined towards pointing out that the old times were the best.....everything about the past was more honest an real....the music, the people, their love, and their affection. So what is it about the present that is so unreal...??? I think the answer lies in the fact that we live a lot in the virtual world these days. We are just too obsessed by it. There are virtual smileys, virtual hugs,virtual love and even virtual money.... whoa!! I vividly remember my childhood.....the summers were so balmy and lazy that we would just find so much happiness in wiling away time with cousins and family...evenings would find us playing cricket or taking a trip to the nearby temple. there was so much satisfaction in doing just that. Nowadays a moment not spent in front of the computer or not logging in on Facebook is considered a total waste. Oh yes....I find my cousin 24/7 logged on Facebook...he just has to be the first person to like his friend's post. The fact that people take so much time adjusting their makeup and hair to pose for a photo justifies this fact. Their Facebook photo update would otherwise be messed up they say. True, people are more connected to each other these days...but I wonder how many actually feel the real connection?? Relationships are more make and break type and so are marriages. Sex seems to rule over our lives. I am actually shocked to find out that this attitude is fast catching up in India...the country were marriage was something more than Sex....it was more of a sacred bond. Once upon a time there was a clear distinction between these two....but the same distinction appears blurred today. What pains me even more is the fact that the concept of love has undergone a total makeover. Today Love is Sex and Sex is love. The fact that Love has a deeper meaning beyond physical boundaries doesn't seem to appeal much to people. All this fast paced life...giving a random moment for everyone and forgetting important commitments for much more virtual one's saddens me no end. Is it really worthy enough for the virtual world to take control of our lives??? There is really a limit for everything. True, that technology has aided us in a lot of ways we can't even begin to imagine but a limit is a limit. One of my friend complained to me that her boyfriend had more friends on Facebook than her. She wanted to reign supreme on this issue and hence she went ahead on a friends adding spree of Facebook. Result = She had more strangers than friends by the end of the day but yet she didn't care...she was happy. I was reduced to rolling my eyes at her. When i was just a little kiddo....I simply could not wait to grow up fast and take on the world. But now when I am actually growing up to be a responsible mature young lady..I find myself desperately dreaming and hoping for those beautiful and happy summers. When life was just more simple and easy and Happiness was always in Abundance that you could just take it for granted. I miss those days so desperately and the fact that they might never actually come back makes me shed painful tears. I pity the children of today...they will never know what they missed. The rat race to create your own identity in this highly competitive and highly manipulative world begins for them right from when they are born. Today I feel so proud and lucky to say i was born in the 90's. That happens to be the best period of my life. When my grandmother recollects her childhood i feel so jealous not to have been born then because she sure did learn and lived much more than we can ever hope to do in a Lifetime. It is only today that I've come to understand the meaning of the adage OLD is GOLD. It Truly Is :). Below is the link for another beautiful song of the Cranberries....Ode to My Family

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zz-DJr1Qs54&ob=av2e.

I Promise....

Here is a beautiful and meaningful series of lines....(u can call it a poem if u'd like :P) but they are a set of lines ripe with meaning if u ponder and understand.......

and yeah i won't own any copyrights on this....coz i do not have the sheer brilliance to write poetry....so obviously this is not mine....just something I thought to be awesome!!

I PROMISE.........

If I had to promise you something, what would it be??

I can't promise that you would always be comfortable...

Because Comfort brings boredom and Discomfort.

I can't promise that all your desires be fulfilled....

Because desires whether fulfilled or unfulfilled bring frustration.

I can't promise that there will always be good times.....

Because it is the tough times that make us appreciate joy.

I can't promise that we will be rich or famous or powerful....

Because they can all be the pathways to misery.

I can't promise that we will always be together....

Because it is the separation that makes the togetherness wonderful.

Yet, if you are willing to walk with me,

If you are willing to value love over everything else,

I promise that this will be the most rich and fulfilling life possible.

I promise your life will be an eternal celebration,

I promise you I will cherish you more than a King cherishes his crown,

And I shall love you more than a mother loves her newborn.

If you are willing to walk into my arms,

if you are willing to live in my heart,

you will find the one you have waited forever.....

You will meet yourself in my arms

I PROMISE..............

Questions Galore.....

Another year has almost come to an end. As I reflect and filter through the past, regret fills me profoundly.....There have been many things that haven't simply gone the way they should have....but that is what I think...God has seen to it that they end differently. Many people have always complained to me that they simply didn't have the power to control many things in their life. I vehemently argue that one's life is always in one's control. You have the power to make and break decisions. My argument that a person can control everything in his/her life except maybe death....stands defeated today. I had the power to change the outcome of many things that happened this year. Yet i just didn't.I couldn't. So how can we explain this? Should I blame it on God or Destiny? I always thought that both GOD and DESTINY were figments of imagination of the human mind. ARE THEY??? Or is there some simple answer to this riddle. I am no where near to figuring this out. M stuck and so desperately. Right now all m surrounded by is frayed relationships and bad memories. They say time heals everything. But how long will it take. I don't think some wounds ever HEAL....no i don't think so. Maybe they are left to serve a grim remainder of mistakes committed in the past. They never seem to fade in my life at least. I can only say this honestly I never meant to hurt the people who claim that i hurt them. Never ever did i think that all such shit would happen this year. It's been a hell of a bad year for me....and i can't make head or tail of the mess m stuck up in. I am sure many people would be always hoping that they get one chance to set right the mistakes of the past. How many get that chance??? One thing that strikes me odd is that if at all there was a GOD in this world...why isn't the world a much happier place to live today for millions on the street? Those who are rich are never happy or contended. Poverty and homelessness continues to be a raging topic cutting across continents. The middle-east is torn apart by War....where is GOD in all of this? What if man created the concept of GOD to atone for his mistakes? Jesus surely produced more bread from a single loaf. Lord Krishna could make rice appear out of thin air. Then y the hell are people starving on the roads today? I wonder how many could give a sane and rational answer to this. When i posed this question to my dear mother i got a whacking reply: Science can never answer the concept of GOD. Oh yes...here we are again revisiting the most profound and hard fought battles of SCIENCE Vs RELIGION. Reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown gave me more knowledge than anyone could. Scientists are fighting hard to try to unravel the secrets of how the universe began. 2012 will surely unravel the mystery of Higg's Boson. I have full confidence in SCIENCE. Maybe it can explain the concept of GOD. Meanwhile the City is gearing up for New Year 2012. I wonder what is so new in the year? People booze,smoke and drive more rashly heralding the new year. As far as I am concerned everyday is a New Year, if you see it that way. I am very happy about the campaign launched against Drunk Driving in the city....oh yes i do not care whether the pubs and restaurants are registering a drop in sale of liquor, coz many others will go home warm and safe with this new initiative in place. As I admire another beautiful sunset, m left with more baffling questions than my mind can actually handle. Well I am off to pay a visit to dear Jesus in the Church......and maybe get to soak in the Xmas spirit there. Merry Christmas to Everybody!! Take Care and God Bless!

Baffling.....

Another day has dawned bright and wintry....an opportunity to appreciate the rays of the Sun (who happens to be my best buddy :P)....warming me up for whatever lay ahead. I unfurl the newspaper, to drink in the recent news across the continents.... It has happened yet again.....it has caught my eye.....the woes of the economy. Some hot shot economist.....ploughs on a well thought(but drastically empty) post on how and why the economy of the world suffers..oh yes there are a lot of complex terms like FDI's,CRR's, GNP's, not to mention the regular terms of price rise, rupee to dollar values and inflation's. Hasn't it ever crossed this columnist's mind that the common man would hardly go into the intricacies of the economy to understand why he has been handed the Pink Slip or how he would actually turn up at his doorstep to explain to his family that he lost their only source of income. No i would guess not!!

 Its not the problem of the World leaders (or the economist's ) that a family gets to lose a day's meal. Somewhere somehow a child is denied a right to education because his family cannot pay up for the exorbitant school fees. It is happening all around the World. The Rich seem to be getting more richer and the poor more poorer. The poverty line is a glaring example of this. So now what can the common man do about this? Bemoan his fate? Curse the leaders who seem to do nothing? TV news channels show a group of bickering men (and women too) falling over each other to announce their views regarding the failing economy. Whether their reasons are justified or not i do not know, but i do feel that the basic these people seem to have missed a few crucial lessons on how to respect a fellow speaker!! They bicker worse than fisherman selling their catch.  They do not even pause to take a breath let alone listen to what the others have got to say. Meanwhile it is the same story yet again...rising fuel prices (oh yes petrol seems to be the most wanted liquid in the world), ailing financial establishments, inflation shootin' up through the roof, the never constant cost of living, essential commodities being charged an arm and a leg', all are sure signs of a thoroughly mismanaged governing system....and yet again the common man pays for it. A dream house remains a dream for millions. Survival takes top priority in these challenging times.

 I hope and pray to ye God, that a miracle happens and the economy stabilizes all across the world for the Greater Good!! If you've got a Roof above your head and  food 3 times a day you definitely have to thank the Almighty coz that's something millions of people are deprived of out there. Oh yes!! its a jungle out there. One can never appreciate the importance of this situation unless one leaves the comforts of their present life to at least take a peak out at the world that lurks out of sight!! There are times when i do feel that the situation wold be much better, if all the black money stashed up in the world were to be revealed. M sure it would definitely alleviate the problem to an extent!!

In hope for a better Tomorrow for our 7 Billion Population.......:)

The Very first.....

Hi, Hi Hi......Blogging...something i always wanted to do and never actually found the time for it. Well here we go...my very first post in my very own space.....i can write what i want......Blogging is all about expressing i say :) We have heard many people say this, Never Bottle Up your Feelings.....Let them out. Now i have sooo many feelings bottled up.....that I've never let them out anytime to anyone.....guess i have to peel them out layer by layer to get to the very bottom...where i hope to find ME :). Yup i am on the quest to know the answer to one of life's most thrilling and audacious questions.....WHO AM I?. Well i am no where near to finding out the answer but yes i am going to try my level best.....i will get there m sure :). Now, i am no expert writer, maybe m not good at expressing myself too... but who says u have to be a writer to blog...everyone can do it and that's the beauty of blogging. Well so here i am, sitting in front of my PC....typing away to glory :) lol....its a beautiful Sunday and the weather is terrific, my kind off weather a bright blue sky...WOW i say :) Nothing makes me more happy than a blue sky :). If your eyebrows are raised....well i'd like to say that m someone who is extremely obsessed with weather...haha....one of my oddities. Well this is my start to my blog and time to address the concerns of a growling stomach...LOL....looking forward to driving around the city in the evening and ofcourse visiting Granny Dear :).....i'll sign off with one of my most favorite quotes : LIVE IN THE MOMENTS!.....they sure slip by mighty fast!!!

Adios!!!